I haven't had much to say recently, which is pretty apparent in my lack of posts. I've been lost in thought and haven't put forth much effort into anything to be quite honest. I found out the day before Thanksgiving that I'm officially getting divorced, so that's been weighing on my mind. We've been apart for 7 months now and things have finally come to a head. I thought I'd deal with it much better than I have. I thought I went through all the emotions 7 months ago... Turns out that's not the case.
After much deliberation, I've decided that I need to take a break from running for a minute. I posted my intentions on my FRB page yesterday and said that my time frame for this break is indefinite. Well, I'm already itching a bit to get out - especially since today is so nice outside - so I think I need to define this break. Therefore, I've decided to take the next two weeks completely off and just reflect on my life. I'll start running and training again on the 17th, which also happens to be my birthday. How convenient.
The timing for this break actually couldn't be better to be quite honest. It's the off-season, the holidays are upon us, and I'm thinking about what sort of goals I want to make for next year. I'm really looking forward to the next few weeks without the added pressure I tend to put on myself, . I put entirely too much pressure on myself over the last year and I'm actually amazed at what I was able to achieve. I ran the best race of my life at Squaw Peak 3 weeks after she moved out. How I pulled that off I'm still not sure! Then things slowly started to dwindle from there. It's to the point now where getting out to run just isn't fun. And that's why we run, right? It needs to be enjoyable; not feel like a chore. I need to learn to love it again, so it's time to get re-focused and re-centered.
I'll be back in a few weeks after I've buried myself in plenty of books, listened to lots of 80's music, and put on about 8 pounds. Haha!
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